Profile Showing?

I title my post Profile Showing with a question mark because...well y'all know how previous profile showings have gone, right??

Well...we are "suppose" to have a profile showing tomorrow, Friday June 1st!  I wasn't going to post it, as mentioned previously I feel like I am just jinxing everything but A.) I can't keep secrets. and B.) We, Birth Mom, and other families being shown need all the prayers we can get!

There are 24 families waiting at our agency and ALL of them will be shown to the birth mom tomorrow. Overwhelming, right?! So our chances of getting chosen are slim but also knowing that everything is meant to be and if this is the baby we are meant to have...it will all work out.  And if not...we will keep waiting for the right one!  Baby is due July 30th!  Which freaks me out a tad knowing that is right around the corner!!!! I think they will be eliminating profile books as quickly as possible to get a final decision.

We should know more in a few days if our book was chosen to move on to the next "step" or not.  I am not really sure what the next step would be but I'm assuming out of the 24 books, she will first try to limit to the top 5-8 and then either try limiting more from there or scheduling to meet each of them.  Everyone is different and we are unsure of what the process will be with this birth mom. 

I will update either way as soon as we know!  Again, prayers are greatly appreciated for everyone involved.  Specific prayer requests are as follows:

1. Prayers for the social workers and counselors involved that they may help lead this birth mom and birth dad to make the right decision for THEM and no one else. 

2. Prayers for the birth mom and dad.  May they have complete peace with their decision, whatever it may be. Pray they can feel God's hand in all of this. 

3. Prayers for all the other 23 families that are waiting and will be shown tomorrow.  A majority of them have been waiting longer than us and I know are just as eager to bring their baby home.

4. Prayers for Ross & I that if this is the baby God has chosen for us, we will be at peace with it and be ready to take this journey to the next level even with the shorter time span which freaks me out a bit!:)  If this baby isn't for us, may we be at peace with that also and know our baby is still out there waiting for us. 

5. And of course, prayers for the little baby that is expected to be making his/her appearance in 2 months! Pray the baby continues to grow and stay healthy and that whatever parent is picked for the baby, he/she will be loved unconditionally!

Thank you so much! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Dreams

Last weekend I had the most wonderful dreams!  I dreamed every night of our baby.  What heart break to wake up and realize they weren't true though!   I haven't dreamed this much about our baby before and wonder if this is a sign that we are getting closer?  I can only hope it's a sign! I've been praying for patience lately and a lot of it.  The hardest things for adoptive parents has got to be the waiting part. Forget about the paperwork, fees, personal questions, and doctor visits.  Looking back that was definitely the "easy" part of this process. 

One of the adoption books I read during our application process talked a lot about the waiting process.  The book is called "Successful Adoption, a guide for christian families."  It's written by Natalie Gillespie.  She talks about how the waiting process is extremely tough, but God has a plan in all of it.  He uses this time to make your faith grow, stretch you beyond your comfort zone, and into a new level of trusting and believing in him.  I have to agree, the book was right on with this.  After all, it is pretty rare for God to work right away.  He usually makes us wait.  The book tells us to not waste our wait time complaining about what we do not yet have (our child) but instead make it our goal to ask God what he wants us to do during this wait time to draw us closer to him, our families, etc.  Starting today, I want to stop wasting our wait time and start truly searching to God for how he wants us to spend our time. 

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.  Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.  -Deuteronomy 31:8